Psalm 51:3-14 is a lament of one's sins to a fierce, anger-filled, guilt-spewing God. My mind could not absorb the fear and trembling that the writer expressed in the lament. Like a laser, Verse 10* became the focus of my worship yesterday in the a.m. and during the day.
By avoiding the groveling to assuage anger from the wrath-filled, vengeful god, portrayed in the psalmist's eyes, do I deny responsibility as a child of God or do I recognize and acknowledge my sins? I don't think I deny anything; my sins disappoint me, I know they must disappoint my creator. Sins cannot be recalled, no do-overs - I've erred and I'll continue to fight against being a repeat offender - sometimes I'll meet that challenge - sometimes I'll not. I'll pray for forgiveness but in the meantime I believe that VERSE 10 and its action in my life will propel me a long way toward living the life of a beloved and redeemed sinner, child of God; farther than crying to God over sins I cannot wipe away.
*Psalm 51:10 - Create in me a clean heart, O God, and put a new and right spirit within me