5K race. Yep, I entered and completed a YMCA 5K fun run event this a.m. I've been training for it since late spring and when the race was canceled about 6 weeks ago, I was very disappointed..... and frankly, sort of lost my oomph for the idea. When the race was suddenly rescheduled for June 26, I once again opted in, but I admittedly was internally a little less enthusiastic than I was on my first registration. I didn't really talk about it much with anyone and actually only told my spouse a couple of days ago that "it" was on for this Saturday.
As he was driving me to the event this a.m. he commented that I seemed rather cool about the event and that didn't I have just a little butterfly or two in my tummy - a butterfly or two?! I thought the whole West Coast Monarch migration had landed inside my belly! So, signing in, getting my number, looking over the other participants like I knew they were looking over me..........the butterflies did increase! One or two young women arrived who had on very, very short shorts and not an OUNCE of body fat on them - I looked away quickly! A few very heavy competitors, and several kids 10-12 years old, some 20 and 30 year olds and maybe someone in the crowd was in their 40's - "Oh my - what was I thinking?"
"Get behind me loud voices in my head - I can, I will do this" and then we began. "Go, run," shouted the starter (low tech starter) - and then insistently again, RUN!......"as though I wasn't:)?" I had to smile to myself and said, "RUN!" I thought better of that in a short time..... was definitely at the back of the pack, and then I felt the shy, young man, about 6'3", sort of tiptoe around me as if to say, "I'm sorry, I must pass you:)" Another smile from me. The next thought came about 1/2 kilometer or less, I thought, "Oh, just turn around and go back; no way, I came to start and to finish this event!" There were more hills than I expected, I walked fast plenty of feet, yards, whatever and I knew I was last but I'll tell you right now there was no way, knowing that I was last that I wasn't going to finish.......even when I had to stop and tie my shoe! Dang it! I thought briefly about running with it untied but it was worrying me so that I figured a short stop was better than a giant spill - I'm not totally without brains!
All of this is to say - I don't think one has to go out for a 5K race or even anything athletic but finding something that you've never done before, practicing it, pursuing it, DECIDING you will do it, is a totally empowering feeling. Thank you for letting me share it with you - and let me know if you're secretly working on a project or event of your own. I'd love to join your cheering section!!!