Friday, February 19, 2010

Wilderness Journey

What stirs within me today regarding my Lenten discipline?  Read, pray, reflect ---  demand, expect?........."Come on God - I need a really powerful post today!  I want to wow my readers with the connection that you and I share - we're a great team aren't we....I mean, setting aside that silly little power struggle regarding which of us is team captain....Oh yeah, write it down.  Ponder what sits in my mind this a.m. after prayer, after scripture reading, after reflection, what do I find?  My need for recognition, my I, I, I!  Arggghhhh!

So back to the journal for more writing......reflecting upon the loudness of silence issuing forth from favorite bloggers and commenters in the last 48 hours or so.  First feeling abandoned by  the usual, prolific sharing and then realizing that perhaps you, like I,  are finding the 40 days ahead daunting and even, for the moment, too awesome to capture or to describe  with pen and paper.  As I move further into the wilderness of Lent, I hope to hear and to share how your and my prayers and reflections are affecting our everyday lives.  But for today, I believe I'd best just put one foot in front of the other and continue my efforts to really enter the wilderness and search my heart for what God wants to say to me rather than what I want to say to God. 


10 comments:

  1. Some phrases stood out: "the loudness of silence" and "the wilderness of Lent."

    I wonder if Jesus might have described His temptation similarly? Experiencing silence and wilderness compared with the noise of villages left behind?

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  2. I hear ya, Sister! Lent has me completely befuddled.

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  3. Ann - Such a good question you posed - even imagining Jesus entering the wilderness is frightening, inspiring. He could have just thrown it all over and been God on earth, conqueror of all. He didn't and he's God on earth and in heaven and conqueror of all........who knew? Thanks so much for reading today and commenting. I look forward to some shared comments with you over this holy season.

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  4. Pollinatrix - It's confusing isn't it? We want so much for ourselves to be faithful and humble - but it's hard to set aside the huge responsibility of attempting to walk into the wilderness with an awesome example of God and humanity. Thanks for your comment - it's reassuring to me!!! xo

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  5. Ann - You made another very good point in your comment about Jesus' experience perhaps of the "loudness of silence" that I mentioned. After being publicly adored, praised, honored in throngs of admirers the silence might have been pleasant but then again heart-breaking and discouraging. Thanks again for your thoughtful commenting.

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  6. I love that you share your struggle with "wow-ing" and writing a powerful post. I can't tell you how many times I compare my ramblings and musings to those who have something TRULY insightful and beautiful to say. I try very hard not to listen to that voice and to be SO grateful for the grace and beauty that I find in the blogs that I follow.

    It's funny, but for me, in the place that I am in my life right now, the "Loudness of Silence" is exactly what I most long to hear. : )

    Love...

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  7. I really appreciate your follow-up comments--you dove in to ponder more deeply those thoughts I initiated after reading your post. I'm glad we've found each other via HighCallingBlogs!

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  8. Rebecca - don't think for a minute that I don't enjoy every one of your posts - your thoughts often lead me to deeper understanding or search of my own! May you find some "loudness of silence" soon:) xo

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  9. Hey Ann,

    Loved the Friday Foods feature at your site/fun to participate and to know that we'll see each other on HCB!

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  10. my lenten silence seems to extended not only to my own posts, but my ability to do my usual prowling of other's sites. the journey's never quite what WE plan, is it?!?!? xoxoxo

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