So many fun and exciting preparations will take place in this final countdown week prior to the big ocean adventure/trip/pilgrimage/voyage thing!
I've wakened the last few nights with thoughts of the next day's chores and checklists. I'd say lost sleep is not a good thing but as I lie awake checking items off my lists, I eventually become bored with that and then turn to prayer (a good thing) for some anxiety relief! Succumbing, I call upon my "alphabet prayer list" - seems to calm and lull me back into dreamland. (The alphabet prayer A, B, etc. naming those names that come into my head for each letter and then adding a prayer for that person. The name can be a first name, a family name, a famous person name - for example a first name like granddaughter A with a calming prayer for her back-to-school anxiety, or proceeding with the B's, a last name as in daughter K's last - with a prayer for her writing skills, or a family name like McM - with prayers for everyone's safe travels, a J name - a recently scooter-injured person's name comes to my mind with a prayer for healing and less pain, sometimes the deceased seem particularly prominent during the alphabet roll call. As I said, the alphabet prayer ultimately soothes my anxiety and I'm off to sleep with often the last amusing thought of "wouldn't Oprah be surprised to know I pray for her occasionally when I "hit the O's?"
Missing a little sleep, feeling a sense of excitement or maybe anxiety during the day, I sometimes think I'm over-reacting to the excitement of this trip planning. On the other hand, how can I resist to prepare as fully as possible in order to then let what happens, happen! It's like wrapping one's own surprise birthday present - sort of knowing what's inside the package, loving the outer layers of shiny colored paper and ribbon, ultimately removing the outer layers to find an amazing, "just thought I knew what it was," surprise!
Do you ever remember preparing for such a journey or such an event? Maybe it was a graduate school
diploma in your hand, or the amazing foreign face of the child you had longed for, or how about renewed acquaintance with a long lost friend or cousin? These are amazing gifts we think we know are coming to us - but can never really imagine the actual thrill of the unwrapping! If you have a minute I'd love to hear a sharing of something for which you prepared and then had to let it happen...........